Game

With the soul and hope as stakes the game carries on
A pair could turn the scales

rain

The rain was never hated as much as today.
Rain forever so the truth will always be obscure
Let delusions thrive under the pelting of the rain
cause the sun burns so much like reality .

青い薔薇

There are many people in his house now,just like on the night of 24 of dec.It is only his relatives.
Should be around time to buy it.

pass the lips and down the throat

Gone were the days where he could refuse alcoholic drinks and carry his life as a ignorant guy who believes in the virtual world that would more or less suffice in the combat against time when everything else seems so plain and boring.But,but the truth now is he would more be glad to have additional servings of it till he can escape whilst being intoxicated.Thats the only negative way of escaping.

Fall

When you fall down u get up.Bullshit.
There are some place where u fall and couldnt get out.
It only sink deeper beyond logic.

Feelings

Is there only lust and emptiness out there?Ugly world.

celebration?

celebration?what kind of bullshit?problems are being generated due to the fucking decision he made.He shouldnt have drag his friends down to get intoxicated for his own selfish reasons.He knew he wasnt there to celebrate .Advice that is being directed at another was so vivid and clear and yet he chooses not to believe in it.Believing in delusions is his fort and there is no way he could escape out of it,only sinking deeper by the moment.

rainy weather

rainy weather but i pass my basic theory test!! on my first try !~~@!@
yay!going to celebrate it by drinking,hope i dont skip tomorrow school,its beens 3 weeks in a row

20days

20more days before Christmas Night.
He hopes to celebrate it with someone but he knows the odds are as good as zero.
The only thing he can do is to stand afar and watch how the rest are enjoying the sacred night.

gloomy weather

gloomy weather gloomy mood .Once again the feeling of emptiness is back again.With no goals nor motivation he sails in the vast ocean against the current with no navigation devoutly wishing for the turbulent seas to free him but he was afraid.

In tune with the silent night

It is the wee hours of morning and the mind is chaotic as usual but no one knows.So what even if someone knows about it?One cannot ask for the impossible.Hes been so far with only the guy within him to mock at him,so he learns to stick close to the usually harsh truth and never steer far away from it , let alone the ability to dream.